1. |
White Noise
02:20
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Black in my eyes
White noise in my ears
Music's playing
You're leaving soon
I miss your voice
Find me again
Alone in my room
Will you return soon
I miss my younger life
Innocence and candlelight
I didn't know
I didn’t know what was waiting
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2. |
New Skin / Good Life
03:13
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I know it's post-death but I could give you a good life
She said she'd say no a thousand times over
Play hell with your photo in the corridor
Find me alone on the bedroom floor
I'm shedding to make room for a new skin
I'm shedding to let you in
When they say what you seek is already within
It's not just me I'm trying to convince
A sincere apology to the one who becomes me
I never meant any harm
I just wanted to leave
Still so young and surrounded by love
The halls I walk you used to walk, when you could
Leave me clues for when you're gone
Like you did when I was young
I'm shedding to make room for a new skin
I'm shedding to let you in
When they say what you seek is already within
It's not just me I'm trying to convince
A sincere apology to the one who becomes me
I never meant any harm
I just wanted to leave
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3. |
Keep My Head Up
03:19
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Just give me a little more life
Just give me a little more joy
Just give me anything
I need more than this
She said
My heart has been aching so so much
How am I meant to feel following all of this loss?
They're leaving over and over again
I can't keep my head up
Just give me a little more time
Just give me a little more love
Just give me anything
I need more than this
She said
My heart has been aching so so much
How am I meant to feel following all of this loss?
They're leaving over and over again
I can't keep my head up
There's a piece of me that wants to turn around
Give up on everything and shut you out
To stop you from leaving over and over again
So make my mind up
-Why not try again
-I'm not scared of change anymore
-So why not try again
I used to remember everything
Now I can't tell you what I did yesterday
But this is me and I'm doing a little better since sixteen
But please
Go easy on me
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4. |
Lens
03:45
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I could cry at the memory of holding you up
I tried so hard but I wasn't strong enough
So I sat with you and reassured
Our lights were glowing as they were torn
My eyes adjust to the room
White noise across my lens view
Traffic hums in the twilight as the sirens continue
Moving on through different bodies
We miss the old ones eternally
My eyes adjust to the room
White noise across my lens view
Traffic hums in the twilight as the sirens continue
Siren sounds in the night
Familiar, alone
I used to be scared of the dark even in my own home
My eyes adjust to the room
White noise across my lens view
Traffic hums in the twilight as the sirens continue
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5. |
(Pre-Death) Dreams I
03:24
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It’s the pre-death dreams that are circling over me
Another stage of grief that I’m processing
I’m telling your stories in the walls where you were
They listened closely but didn’t say a word
I cried at the innocence of leaving you again
I watched as your existence here slowly came undone, returned home, moved along and carried on
Am I lagging behind
Am I falling in line
It’s been so long since we were intertwined
With my hands in the dirt I searched for the seeds
With eyes closed I wished that they’d come to me
I cried at the innocence of leaving you again
I watched as your existence here slowly came undone, returned home, moved along and carried on
I cried at the innocence of losing you again
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6. |
Forgive Me
02:08
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You're sharing your premonitions
It's a pity that we have to say goodbye
I close my eyes
You tell me to wake up
You're drifting off
I don't say a word
What was it like to wake up today?
Forgive me
I can't help my crying
Right there in the garden
That's where I want to be
Don't leave me
Promise you'll consecrate me
Place me where he's buried
I want to be there soon
I've never known a house so quiet
With windows wide
The smoke still lingers
In the walls where you reside
Everything is so different now
It's been this way for a while
Forgive me
I can't help my crying
Right there in the garden
That's where I want to be
Don't leave me
Promise you'll consecrate me
Place me where he's buried
I want to be there soon
The sun glows strongly
The clouds grow heavy
It's almost like everything is saying goodbye
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7. |
Saints In The Morning
03:39
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I’ve been catching shadows moving from the corner of my eyes
I love the saints in the morning on All Soul's Night
The connections were feeling are ever so right
Wake me up a bit more as the veil lifts tonight
I feel like I’m in retrograde to everyone else
There’s nothing left to talk about except my personal hell
But it makes me feel such comfort
In a new kind of way
That we all live and we all die all the same
Brace the free fall
It’s incredible
Like a planet I’ve been wandering and you’re wandering as well
I fear I’m far too lonely
Only time will tell
We’re you just a star in my eyes from a light year away
By the time you’re in my sights you already start to decay
I feel like I’m in retrograde to everyone else
There’s nothing left to talk about except my personal hell
But it makes me feel such comfort
In a new kind of way
That we all live and we all die all the same
-Love, death, dreams, and the sleep between
Brace the free fall
It’s incredible
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8. |
Tired Eyes
03:26
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I woke up at 3 that morning
Everything started to align
I watched the world pass by
From your old bedside
You must've watched the moon through tired eyes
Arch over the neighbourhood where everything's the same
Your time came too soon
All I ask is that you leave me something more
Or anything at all to live for
All your belongings are still in their place
It's quiet now, I sit up straight
There's music there that rests unplayed
In every record, CD case, and broken tape
You must've watched the moon through tired eyes
Arch over the neighbourhood where everything's the same
Your time came too soon
All I ask is that you leave me something more
Or anything at all to live for
I'm half in mourning
I'm half living again
You could do anything
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9. |
Lullaby
02:27
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Sleepy eyes
I can hardly keep them over
Give me a sign
A sense of a last day feeling
A fresh start fever
A warm embrace
Through every open door
Singing "the world's still at my feet"
Heavy heart
You can hardly keep it open
Mine's open wide
Falling slowly
Breathing out softly
Hold aquamarine
Through every open door
Singing "the world's still at my feet"
It's warmer now where we are
A small piece of heaven
Free from doubt
I feel it in my throat
A children's song
Making me cry
Through every open door
Singing "the world's still at my feet"
Sleepy eyes
I can hardly keep them open
Send me a sign that you're fine.
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10. |
Interlude
01:27
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Brace the freefall, it's incredible
Brace the freefall, it's incredible
Brace the freefall, it's incredible
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11. |
(Breathe Out) Dreams II
03:02
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I’d etch your name into tables
Before I learned to write it into songs
These days I sleep with aquamarine
Because I don’t have anything else to hold
The love I knew was shining
Behind eyes locked into mine
I’m not feeling anything for anyone
But I don’t mind
Underwater
Breathe out dreams
Head is slowly settling
I am beside myself
But in a different way
I know you’re here with me
Your body’s free from all that you were made to be
In my dreams you didn’t die
I planned your birthday surprise
In my dreams I was dancing
It felt something like home
Did you miss what I said
Did you misunderstand
I’ll say it again
I’ll say it out loud
Underwater
Breathe out dreams
Head is slowly settling
I am beside myself
But in a different way
I know you’re here with me
Your body’s free from all that you were made to be
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12. |
Same Floor
03:37
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What if I could see you again
How I see you in dreams
How I took everything in during your last few years
Now I'll lay myself to rest
I've been sitting in the same place
I've been here before
Same floor
Staring at the same wall
IV glow
My heart beats slowly
I need to calm down
I need to go home
I've been low
The grey lifts over
It numbs any sound
I need to go home
Somebody is covering me while I'm recovering
I've been thinking it over
I was running on empty
Watch my colour draining
In the morning I'm okay
I can't help but falter when each day's a tidal wave
Watch my colour draining
In the morning I'm okay
And yet still I falter
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13. |
Bed
02:52
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If I could turn and talk to you I wonder what you'd say
I think that I like how I've grown
I hope you'd say the same
I've been overwhelmed by living
All I want to do is stay in bed
The panic attacks are slowly easing
When you said things would get better...
Is this what you meant?
There are old notebooks on a shelf
I kept a record of when I wasn't doing so well
Quietly waiting to begin again
Back then I couldn't tell
That I'd been overwhelmed by living
All I'd want to do is stay in bed
The panic attacks were slowly easing
When you said things would get better...
Is this what you meant?
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14. |
IFSBIMY
02:43
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I remember that day
I stayed up all night
I packed my things and took the first train
The sun through the window
The landscape flattened out
I got home and slept for a day
I'd never felt so safe feeling this way
-I miss you every single day
There's a place in my head that transcends your death
It precedes your birth
I met you both there
I didn't want it to end
Waiting to see you again
I was so young
I'd never felt so safe feeling this way
-I miss you every single day
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15. |
9 Years
03:47
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Encourage me off of the walls like you did in years before
Draw me into song
The Sanskrit dances on our tongues
I’m heading for as much devotion as the sun on the horizon
A life without a loss of focus
I’m not getting younger
It’s been 9 years
And now you get to know me
They always ask me how I’ve been and I think what a question
I’ve honestly been doing fine.
But you should’ve seen me the other night
My mind goes back and forth in conversations
But things don’t feel right
This should be a time to feel alive
This day doesn’t seem to end
I wake up to the lights low
Parts of my life have been dying off
Now 3 years in a row
In a mix of feelings I settle in the middle of meaning
It’s quiet in the eye of a storm that rolls inside of me
And now you get to know me
It’s been 9 years
They always ask me how I’ve been and I think what a question
I’ve honestly been doing fine.
But you should’ve seen me the other night
My mind goes back and forth in conversations
But things don’t feel right
This should be a time to feel alive
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16. |
Body In Me
02:13
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Those seconds felt like days
12 years of never separating
I'll write the time up with every spare minute
I'm existing, I'm waiting
I wait for the bells to ring
There's this body in me
When are you returning
How long is long enough
The bells rang 6 times
There's a body in me
You're returning
Those two weeks felt never-ending
With this body in me
Please never leave
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17. |
Sleep
03:10
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I'm driving back to your house tonight
Though everyone's asleep
I'll lock the door and listen out
But you're silent when you sleep
Of all that I do and everything I've been
It's you who started this
Of all that I've been through and everything I've seen
That made me feel something like complete
My head takes on disaster routes
You hold me like your daughter
With the same sweetness and love
I see an innocence in slowly leaving
Of all that I do and everything I've been
It's you who started this
Of all that I've been through and everything I've seen
That made me feel something like complete
Then it's gone again
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18. |
Spin Me Out
04:02
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Spin me out
Use your words
A lifetime ago
I was another girl
Devoid of feeling
All those mornings I’d lay in bed
The green room and silhouettes
Of the records I’d collected
Before we laid you down to rest
A sickness rises up in you
Like a slow decay
The slowest fade
We watch you wither away
All those mornings you lay in bed
Purple rooms and silhouettes
Of the records you collected
Before we laid you down to rest
We’ve seen the grief
We’ve come so far
Since those twelve year old kids
Lost in the dark
Shed the fearing
All those mornings we’d lay in bed
White room and silhouettes
Of everything we’d collected
Before we laid you down to rest
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19. |
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Sit, watch, listen
Dull, dull, flicker
I fixate with precision
Then burst into colour through a prism
Gold fever cry
Tears through hollow eyes
I cover over and hide
Another piece of my troubles die
It's 2010
"Wide-eyed and Willing" again
Starting to dream
Of the soon-to-be dead
It's so easy to see
Eventually, everyone will leave
It's so easy to see
Eventually, everything will disappear
Sit, watch, listen
Keep myself at a distance
My head's my haven, my prison
For every best and bad idea
It's so easy to see
Eventually, everyone will leave
It's so easy to see
Eventually, everything will disappear
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fine. Boston, UK
fine. is
Liam James Marsh (Kid Chameleon)
kidcham.bandcamp.com
Alice Kat
alicekat.bandcamp.com
www.facebook.com/alicekatmusic/
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